Hello everyone,
Hope this new blog finds you all well.
Today finds me in my third week as an Admissions Advisor at DeVry University.
To start off, I have to say I am incredibly thankful for this position. Finding any job in an economy like this is something to be thankful for. To be working with nice people and to be able to do the job well...that's a blessing from God.
Also, my apartment is very nice. It's a one bedroom, but it's spacious and in a good area. Feel free to come up and visit sometime.
While I am trying to focus on all these positives, I am really struggling emotionally.
I never dreamed I would live alone in a city I knew hardly anything about. My plan was to stay at home, find a job locally, and wait until Eric and I got married to move out. God, however, seems to have another plan, and I am trying very hard to trust this is the right thing for me.
Living alone is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I am not good at cooking for myself or keeping myself occupied. To be honest, I cry a lot because I am homesick, boyfriend sick, and just comfort zone sick.
Please pray that I find peace in the midst of this big life change. I know God has good plans for me, but it's hard to be sure you are in his plan when you feel so sad. Also, please pray that I can focus on the positives and not on the negatives. I want this to be a good experience, despite myself.
Thanks for reading! Hope to see and talk to you all soon!
Meagan
Hey Megan- My mom read your blog and then told me about it. Let me tell you...I do academic advising for a MBA Program, I now live alone in a house for the first time, I've had one of the emotionally hardest years of my life. Needless to say, I feel where you're coming from.
ReplyDeleteSometimes God pulls of from what we think we want to help prepare us for something different and greater than we can imagine. It often doesn't feel that way, it doesn't feel like we're doing what we're supposed to when its hard or when we're lonely. But just continue to trust in what you're doing and be proud of yourself for taking such a big step. Doing what you did isn't easy and there are a lot of people who wouldn't take such a big step out of their comfort zone. You took a step of faith, continue to be obedient to the call on your life.
Carry this with you...
I am leaving you with a gift - peace of mind and heart. And the peac I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be trouble or afraid.
John 14:27
Meagan,
ReplyDeleteI just need to tell you specifically how God is looking out for you and your personal wellbeing. He understands your tears and loneliness and is providing for you in an amazing way.
So...here is what I have to tell you about today.
I am usually on facebook daily off and on through out the day. Today, I did my normal morning facebook viewing and then went out to the garden for awhile. My computer automatically shuts off after awhile so when I came back in I just powered it up again.
Imagine my surprise when instead of my 2 normal open tabs - MSN homepage and facebook - I had a 3rd one listed at the bottom of my screen. I clicked on it and it was open to this blog page - I did not even know anything about this blog and hadn't seen anything about it previously.
I read your blog and immediately knew that I was to lift you up in prayer as Shana had been exactly in this place during the past year. She can really identify with your feelings and maybe can help you get through this.
Anyway, that is my story for today. It is awesome that God can work through whatever media He wants - I think it is a miracle that your page was opened on my computer. I will continue to pray for God's peace for you. He really is intimately aware of your struggles and is going to provide for you.
Shana and Diane,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your comments.I appreciate your prayers, support and encouragement so much! God is such a good God. Thanks again!